Unexpected events.....

***Something unexpected happened today....
So just when you think that you have everything in your life under control, god manages to throw in an unexpected event that really tests your emotional health and your ability to cope. 
I cannot have kids (that is a whole other story) but I have animals.  I always have an even number so that everyone has a friend or a special someone to love.  Me and my husband received Bruiser, a chihuahua puppy, as a wedding gift when we married 10 years ago this month.  Bruiser had an innate ability to always keep me and my husband together.  For Bruiser's one year birthday we got him a little apple head chihuahua girlfriend named Lola.  Lola and Bruiser were the perfect couple.  They fell in love, nurtured their relationship and just grew together in ways that often seemed more human than dog.  Bruiser had a stroke in March and we had to put him down.  It was devastating to me and my husband, but poor Lola was just lost.  Bruiser had been such a big part of her life since she was 6 weeks old.  After Lola mourned her loss she started to integrate herself more into our daily lives again, but she was just so sad.  She was like this little widowed puppy with a broken heart.  I knew in my heart that she would not be around for much longer because of her broken heart.  Well it happened unexpectedly this morning.  She has had a cough that is a side effect of her contracting Valley Fever a couple of years ago.  She is such a tough little girl that she would have never let us know that she was not feeling well.  We were maintaining her cough with medicine and she had no other outward signs of illness.  But this morning she coughed and just couldn't catch her breath.  My suspicions are that she managed to get a cold and possibly pneumonia and with fluid in her lungs her ability to breath was compromised.  I knew though that she wanted to go and I needed to let her.  She cuddled up next to me, looked right in my eyes and seemed to tell me that she just couldn't go on without her beloved Bruiser.  I stayed up with her all night and held her until her very last breath.  My animals are like my children and even though I would have loved to have more time with Lola I know that her heart was just to broken and she had to go to Bruiser.  Letting her go was one of the hardest things I have ever done.  But I am comforted knowing that Bruiser and Lola are once again together and being in love.